First paper!

Yesh! I finally had my first paper today. I have been waiting for this day for so so long. Alamak....the waiting had been torturous lo...The hardest paper of all 4...but i managed to finish it before time is up. Hiak Hiak...sibei song~

NOTHING

I need to grow up!

Dejected

I just received the rejection email from UBS. I guess the role that I applied for required much better results than I expected. It's so disappointing as the online test I did last night appeared to be very easy. Confidence level is once again at all time low and the hunt for job continues.

Feels like a new semester

After the spring break, I went for my first tutorial. It felt like as though it is my first lesson for the semester. Haha...I totally forget how it feels like to study. I guessed I am still immensed in my own holiday mood ba...how i wish Ivon is still in Australia..haha..even though the Gold coast trip was short, I still felt so happy because of the company I have there. Ivon really makes my day...haha...still kinda miss her alot...

Good time never last.

I finally understood the meaning of 'time flies'. These 7 days have been one of the happiest moments of my life. Yvonne came over to Sydney to accompany me and we travel to Gold Coast for a mini holiday trip as well. Even though I get to see her almost every day before I come to Sydney, I never felt so estatic when I first see her at the airport. I felt a slight warmth in my heart when I saw her walk out of the arrival gates. For the next 6 days, I shifted all my attention to her as though I am living in my own world with only her as my companion. However, good times never last. Fear begins to creep in. Fear for 28th Sept when she have to go back to Singapore. I sent her to the airport. I wanted to ask her to stay for a week more but I know it is impossible. At first, I thought to myself, "Just a couple of months, I can see her again and everything will be fine."

I walked her to the departure gates. I bade goodbye to her and gave her a hug. Her face flushed and tears started to roll down her eyes. I was shocked at first. But when I stared at her watery eyes, my heart felt so painful and the thought of her leaving makes me feel so wrenched. Tears swelled up in my eyes. I told myself to hold them in as I don't wana make her feel worse. We hugged for one last time. I saw her walked past the departure gates. Soon after, a lonely man started to roam around the airport in search of the observation deck. I hope to see her board the plane but I realised their obeservation deck is not linked to their departure gates. Feeling really disappointed.

P.S. Guan Da was instrumental in this wonderful experience in Sydney. I would like to extend my thanks to him by giving him a 'Hello Titty' shirt and hope that he will wear it to the future gaming sessions. Haha

Fate?

I guess fate has decided for my fren that its better for him to stay single forever. He thought that he has found someone who really understand him, love him and someone that he love. But in a series of events that didn't turn out good, has made him realised that the woman he loved most does not understand him at all. I believe he is certainly not a guy who lacks motivation and like to drag things. Words from her were so hurtful and really leave a very deep impression in his mind. My fren told me that it was very hard for another person to see things in his own shoes. He seeks understanding and most probably at this moment when she sees this blog, she will be fuming. She will very likely message my friend and give him a piece of mind.

Things dont go well

I m alone

Hebe vs 3 blind mice

What a way to end the week...

Luck is on the wrong side. The match between the league's strongest team ended with a really bad taste. The better team lost. Throughout the entire match, referree was blind folded with his heart with the home team. I do not understand the reason for giving Arsenal players so many yellow cards when the more physical side gets away with warnings. Arsenal got a clear penalty in the first half but he turned deaf ears to appeals. Yet, he award a penalty for Manchester whose standard dropped so much after the departure of Ronaldo. I'm sure their luck will run out soon. To all contenders of the EPL crown, the ultimate chance is here, grab it!

Regret

I hope that Ivon will reopen her blog again because I think it would be more fun for us to communicate in this way and see each other's share of views from different perspectives. Please...dar..i plead u to publicize ur blog once again.

Hope to recover fast

LAst night as like before, I couldn't sleep properly. Stomach was growling like mad and I had diarrhea. The feeling was probably similar to that in Batam. I felt worse because Yvonne wasn't around to pat some back. Haha..though it is not proven medically that patting will help one to recover faster but at least provide some sense of comfort. My mind is forever in a twirl. I find it hard to rest because of aching bones and diarrhea. My lips are dry even though I drank tons of water and I lost all my appetite for food. That sounds unbelievable but everything just taste so blend to me. Let's hope that I can recover faster and finish up my tutorials in hand. Otherwise, I will have hell week on next monday.

Very upset...

Lastest update from Yvonne is that she cannot find a friend to accompany her to Sydney to visit me. I'm very upset about this matter. It's really very hard to understand her plight from a normal point of view, but I totally understand and as her boy friend I feel so helpless. I really wish her to come visit me but I know the chances are slim. I shall pray for miracle to happen and someone out there please be kind enough to lend a helping hand.

Yummy seafood

Our first home cooked meal

Wow...it was so much fun to cook our own meal in a foreign country. Firstly, we do not seem to find the right spices and sauce for our oriental dish. Haha..I guessed I should start learning some Italian or french cuisine. What do Aussies normally eat? I really had hard time trying to find a proper Aussie recipe that is relatively easy to prepare. LAter on, I shall upload some photos on my cooking. I prepared some ABC soup and seafood lasagne for my apartment mates. Cross my fingers they are edible. For goodness sake, I cooked for my wife, Yvonne so the standard should be quite acceptable de ba~...hahaa

Worried...

My mum called me to inform me that my uncle was hospitalised and had to amputate one of his toe. He is diabetic. I guessed he had a slight knock that caused the toe to swell and rot. haiz....it's really worrying because of the previous similar cases that I heard of from my friends. I'm in Australia right now, and I felt so useless. I can't be of any help to him. Argh!...

A fishy day

Early in the morning, we dressed up like fishermen hungry for some fresh and juicy seafood at the famous SYDNEY FISH MARKET. The moment we stepped into the vicinity, we could smell the strong fishy stench that probably drew hundreds of sea gulls to the port.

Look at the sumptous seafood spread! Omg, how i wished my buffet khakis and my darling Ivon were there for the massacre. Haha...I just cant keep my eyes off those bright and colourful sea delicacies. My saliva filled my entire mouth, only my sheer determination kept them in. I felt damn weak when I see them.

First time in my life......

It was the first time in my life that I was surrounded by so many seagulls, stupid looking birds and pigeons. After a long walk down the circular harbour, we bought some delicious fish and chips to satisfy our hunger. Just when we were about to goggle up all the food, a flock of birds flew over and started to show some form of aggression towards us. haha...seagulls are not that cute afterall. They are just like those ugly crows in Singapore lurking after your food. It was so intimidating that we started running away from them. They stalked us like a pack of hungry wolves. In the end, we had to hide ourselves in the subway to finish our meal. What a pathetic way to end the day!

Sydney Opera House

Macquarie University international organise this cruise party as a welcome night for all inbound exchange students. A beautiful night but without my darling Ivon, I just feel not so perfect.

Internet is so bloody expensive!

I have never thought that internet can be that expensive. I guess I'm too used to the unlimited broadband access in Singapore.

Hungry trolley stunners

We went shopping at the Macquarie shopping center. it is probably the nearest and ONLY shopping mall in my vicinity. Oh crap! It was a long stroll. Cold and hungry, we dragged ourselves to every mobile outlet, trying to fix our phone and internet access. After a few fruitless attempts, I finally got my per-paid SIM with Optus. It took me at another 20 minutes or so to verfiy my details with the operator. Luckily, she was friendly over the phone, otherwise I would been cursing and swearing as the process was really gruelling. I cannot use a better word to describe myself other than "devastated". My stomach is growling like mad and we head straight to the FOOD court just below the mobile shop. OMG, the mixed rice with 2 additional dishes cost 8.90 AUD which is equivalent to 10 bucks in SGD. I could have eaten at least 3 plates of that in Singapore. Super expensive man! I suddenly felt so poor. My first meal was at the fast food chain in Australia called the HUNGRY JACKS which really describe my feelings at that point of time. Next, we went to Woolworth's ( like Carrefour in Singapore) to buy our groceries and pillows. Alright, obviously we bought a lot a lot of stuff and would not want to carry all those heavy plastic bags back home. haha...we "BORROWED" a few trolleys (like those aunties in Singapore) and managed to push them home. We had a mini joke among us. We tried to convince ourselves and be pretentious that we are only pushing the trolleys to our cars and not bringing them back. And so we kept saying that we are going back to our cars. Soon after, it just became our secret code to "KOP" the trolleys. hahaha

My first day in Australia, Sydney!

Argh...the weather is damn cold here...when i first stepped out of the transit airport at Perth, i though they have outdoor air conditioners...haha...it's even colder than in Vivo city and Great World city. I really regretted not bringing more jeans to Australia. My luggage are full of shorts and bermudas! zzzZ...i can imagine my shivering face.

A lousy day

Ivon is returning from Taiwan!

A very exciting beginning of my day because Ivon is returning from Taiwan after a long holiday. Yesh...finally get to see her after my examinations. I really missed her a lot man. Mm...now in office trying to sort some administrative stuff and at the same time, see whether got any luck in fixing an appointment to boost my sales for the upcoming week. I wonder what shirt did Ivon buy for me? Haha...hopefully it's not too tight because I seem to grow in size over the last few days.

A very challenging day

I have trying to curb my temper for the past few days. Sometimes when everything goes against you and you have nobody to tell, that feeling is quite annoying. I think life has too many misunderstandings to begin with. So many endings are determined by your every decisions at different situations, junctures and at even just a split second moment. Every little details matter, at least to some, especially me whom is super sensitive to the surrounding. Haha..maybe that's my strengths? I must apologise to all that I offend unknowingly and I must really tell them that I don't mean anything bad. Is there a right and wrong area? A lousy mood sums up the day

My heart bleed for my friend

My friend told me about his quarrel with gal friend. He said that his gal friend complained that he rather go for his friends' birthday party rather than go her house during a very busy period for my friend. Even though my friend often accompany his gal friend and even went over to her house whenever he wants to see her or send her home after her work. When she is sad or feeling unwell, he will buy things for her and tries to cheer her up. Once he waited 1 hour plus for her at Dhouby Ghaut during times when he is very busy but he did not say to anyone except me. His gal friend always feels that he treat us better than her. But the truth is it never happen at all. He met his friend once because it's his birthday and that friend is his long time buddy(10yrs). On another incident, he met his group of friends during his grandmother in law's funeral. How ironic? On every other ocassions when he tries to squeeze time for her, no one knows. His gal friend does not know where the time for to accompany come from. It simply comes from his own sleeping time, his own entertainment time, including his family and friends time. I believe everybody needs friends. We are warm blooded social animals. My friend does not blame his gal friend for accompanying her family when he wants to meet her. He understands because he loves her. He never complains about her gal friend not being to do this or do that because he loves her. He don't need anything from her as he only needs her company and listening ears when he is feeling low or stressed from work. He tries his best to accommodate everybody in his life but he realised that everybody is in the end unhappy with him. He has forgotten how to love himself. I urged my dear friend, learn to love yourself and do not care so much about other pple's feelings. Only after so, your life will be happier and better. If you love your gal friend, ditch all your friends. You can only have one thing in your life - love. Unless one day, she decides to leave you then you may realise that your world is so empty. My friend is always hoping that his gal friend will understand his stand and stop questioning his love for her. I will urge my friend to buy a calendar and start to jot down every hour that he spent with his gal friend or talk to her over the phone as a measure to prevent over favourtism of friends. There is no room for friends.

Tired soul

Just finished another presentation...very tired man...haha...totally screwed up though. I think I can't kick my habit of typing 3 little dots behind every phrase of my sentence. Later meeting Mr rubber bin for dinner, hopefully he won't be late again. Exams are coming. Time super precious man. From my calculations, most likely I will not be able to complete my full revision. Mm..desperate measures for drowning students like me. Evil thoughts...haha...shut off all communications from now on? Though I find it quite hard not to call Yvonne every night to chit chat and talk cock sing song. GrRahh...I look forward to starting a new semester in a completely different environment. Studying for the sake of results irks me. I must find a reason for studying now!

The Beginning

The beginning is always challenging. It's kinda hard for an old man with a young heart and fatty body to write such lengthy stories every day. But i guess it will help to bridge the gap between vonnie and me when I'm in Australia...haha...let's see whether i'm good at writing grandmama story...3 cheers to myself