A very challenging day

I have trying to curb my temper for the past few days. Sometimes when everything goes against you and you have nobody to tell, that feeling is quite annoying. I think life has too many misunderstandings to begin with. So many endings are determined by your every decisions at different situations, junctures and at even just a split second moment. Every little details matter, at least to some, especially me whom is super sensitive to the surrounding. Haha..maybe that's my strengths? I must apologise to all that I offend unknowingly and I must really tell them that I don't mean anything bad. Is there a right and wrong area? A lousy mood sums up the day

My heart bleed for my friend

My friend told me about his quarrel with gal friend. He said that his gal friend complained that he rather go for his friends' birthday party rather than go her house during a very busy period for my friend. Even though my friend often accompany his gal friend and even went over to her house whenever he wants to see her or send her home after her work. When she is sad or feeling unwell, he will buy things for her and tries to cheer her up. Once he waited 1 hour plus for her at Dhouby Ghaut during times when he is very busy but he did not say to anyone except me. His gal friend always feels that he treat us better than her. But the truth is it never happen at all. He met his friend once because it's his birthday and that friend is his long time buddy(10yrs). On another incident, he met his group of friends during his grandmother in law's funeral. How ironic? On every other ocassions when he tries to squeeze time for her, no one knows. His gal friend does not know where the time for to accompany come from. It simply comes from his own sleeping time, his own entertainment time, including his family and friends time. I believe everybody needs friends. We are warm blooded social animals. My friend does not blame his gal friend for accompanying her family when he wants to meet her. He understands because he loves her. He never complains about her gal friend not being to do this or do that because he loves her. He don't need anything from her as he only needs her company and listening ears when he is feeling low or stressed from work. He tries his best to accommodate everybody in his life but he realised that everybody is in the end unhappy with him. He has forgotten how to love himself. I urged my dear friend, learn to love yourself and do not care so much about other pple's feelings. Only after so, your life will be happier and better. If you love your gal friend, ditch all your friends. You can only have one thing in your life - love. Unless one day, she decides to leave you then you may realise that your world is so empty. My friend is always hoping that his gal friend will understand his stand and stop questioning his love for her. I will urge my friend to buy a calendar and start to jot down every hour that he spent with his gal friend or talk to her over the phone as a measure to prevent over favourtism of friends. There is no room for friends.

Tired soul

Just finished another presentation...very tired man...haha...totally screwed up though. I think I can't kick my habit of typing 3 little dots behind every phrase of my sentence. Later meeting Mr rubber bin for dinner, hopefully he won't be late again. Exams are coming. Time super precious man. From my calculations, most likely I will not be able to complete my full revision. Mm..desperate measures for drowning students like me. Evil thoughts...haha...shut off all communications from now on? Though I find it quite hard not to call Yvonne every night to chit chat and talk cock sing song. GrRahh...I look forward to starting a new semester in a completely different environment. Studying for the sake of results irks me. I must find a reason for studying now!

The Beginning

The beginning is always challenging. It's kinda hard for an old man with a young heart and fatty body to write such lengthy stories every day. But i guess it will help to bridge the gap between vonnie and me when I'm in Australia...haha...let's see whether i'm good at writing grandmama story...3 cheers to myself